When A Goddess Gets The Blues

Why is it that we believe once we have read that book, or reached that age, or taken that course, or healed that old wound, or evolved past that old pattern, or resolved that immature issue that we should evermore be the great, peaceful, all-knowing, all-loving Goddess, all the time? When we were teenagers we thought, "I'm all grown-up now. I know what it's all about." Then we turned 21 and we realized we didn't know shit as teenagers but now that we are 21, well, we have it all figured out. Then we made it to our 30s and we, again, saw clearly that we knew very little about life and our inner workings. We become mothers, care-givers, teachers, professionals and wives. Well then, didn't we know the truth about life? And on and on we went, believing that at some point in this life, we will have it all figured out and we will reach the awareness that we are Source and that nothing will surprise us and we will know, always, what to do, how to feel, and the truth of all that is. Wisdom is what we are seeking. Do we ever get to the stage in life when we are wise 24/7? Do we ever reach the age and stage of the Wise Woman, The Crone The Goddess of Truth and Peace? When do we get to feel glorious everyday? Isn't depression and sadness and confusion for the un-enlightened? Isn't doubt and fear supposed to evaporate as we work towards our inner light?

Some of us feel the need to hide our days of weakness for fear others will judge our growth as false awareness. Once you receive your PhD you should never have to suffer the mental frustrations of the middle mind. Once a healer you should always know how to heal and never get sick. Once an intuitive coach, you should always engage in communication with your Spirital Guides and see your path clearly. Once an
Avatar Master, a Feng Shui Consultant, a Psychic/Medium, a Psychotherapist, a Doctor of What's Happening Now....we're supposed to be the ones with the answers. We're supposed to be the ones who teach and guide others. Right?

WRONG! Even Goddesses get the blues. Be patient and standstill in your sadness or your doubt or your fear. Don't suppress it because it doesn't fit your expectation of what it means to be enlightened. That, in fact, is the opposite of enlightenment. The Master Capenter somestimes mis-measures. The Master Guru sometimes gets into the ego and has to find his way back. Mother Teresa had days of doubt, fear and confusion.

All things, all experiences are temporary. Don't resist your doubt and confusion or your fear and loneliness. Feel it. Whatever you are feeling, in any given moment, is what needs to be experienced. Stand still and experience it. Don't judge it, describe it, think about it, analyse it, or resist it. Simply, sit still with it and feel it. It is a temporary condition. It is part of your process and re-birth. The more you resist being or feeling what it is you are feeling, the longer your labor will be.

The journey is eternal. Each lesson is part of the evolution of your soul. This isn't a race to the finish line or the destination. It is an eternal evolution of experiences.

Here is your Rune: Isa

Standstill
That Which Impedes
Ice

The winter of the spiritual life is upon you. You may find yourself entangled in a situation to whose implications you are, in effect, blind. You may be powerless to do anything except submit, surrender, even sacrifice some long-cherished desire. Be patient, for this is the period of gestation that precedes a rebirth.

Positive accomplishment is unlikely now. There is a freeze on useful activity, all your plans are on hold. You may be experiencing an unaccustomed drain on your energy and wonder why: A chill wind is reaching you over the ice floes of old outmoded habits.

Trying to hold on can result in shallowness of feeling, a sense of being out of touch with life. Seek to discover what it is you are holding onto that keeps this condition in effect, and let go. Shed, release, cleanse away the old. That will bring on the thaw.

Usually Isa requires a sacrifice of the personal, the "I." And yet there is no reason for anxiety. Submit and be still, for what you are experiencing is not necessarily the result of your actions or habits, but of the conditions of the time against which you can do nothing. What has been full must empty; what has increased must decrease. This is the way of Heaven and Earth. To surender is to display courage and wisdom.

At such a time, do not hope to rely on help or friendly support. In your isolation, exercise caution and do not stubbornly persist in attempting to work your will. Remain mindful that the seed of the new is present in the shell of the old, the seed of unrealized potential, the seed of the good. Trust our own process, and watch for signs of spring.